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Goodnight Inventory

Saturday, January 31st, 2009

When I was a child, my mother or father said prayers with me every night.  Most of the time it was the Lord’s Prayer.  As I got older I added more personal, more extemporaneous flourishes to the prayer.  But nighttime is no longer my most creative time.  I can fall asleep in mid-sentence and wake up in the morning with the feeling I’ve left something undone. 

Today a friend suggested a short nightly inventory.   ”Name three things you are grateful for and one thing you need to work on.”  It sounds like a good plan. I’ll try it for a while.  If I still fall asleep, I’ll go back to my default: “Goodnight, God.”   It’s what I say to my other friends and loved ones at the end of the day. It’s probably okay with God, too.

Prayers for Friends

Friday, January 30th, 2009

Today I prayed for Paul, Sophia, Charles, and E.A.  Each time I look at the drawing, it reminds me to pray for them again.

 

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Drawing; Sybil MacBeth

Paul and I

Wednesday, January 28th, 2009

I’m still in birthday mode and will probably be so on and off during the year. I like the date of my birthday, January 25 for three reasons: It’s easy to remember since it is one month after Christmas. My mother-in-law and I share the occasion; we’re twenty years apart. And on the Anglican calendar of saints, January 25 commemorates the Conversion of St. Paul. I celebrate the irony of our shared day because I love Paul AND he drives me crazy.

Paul says some of the most wonderful things in Scripture and some of the most difficult. He is smug and self-righteous. But not just in spite of those qualities, but because of them, Paul spreads the Gospel far and wide. God leads Paul from persecution into profession. I am smug and self-righteous and without fail both qualities get me into trouble. I pray God will remove these character defects or transform them into something that will bring no harm.

Birthday Prayer

Monday, January 26th, 2009

Besides my own, I have lots of friends with January birthdays.  My friend Cindy O who lives in California gave me permission to doodle a couple of decades ago.  Before that I was so intimidated by the abilities of my artist mother and grandmother that I wouldn’t even pick up a colored pencil or marker.  Cindy changed that for me. 

Cindy loves to sing and shape-note singing from The Sacred Harp is one of her favorite forms right now.  The shape-note system was a way to teach hymns and congregational singing using rectangles, circles, triangles, and diamonds for the notes.   The birthday prayer I sent her below includes one of her favorite hymns called Russia (who knows why it’s named that; maybe England was already taken as a title).  The words are based on Psalm 62:5-8.

 

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Drawing: Sybil MacBeth

Zero Birthday

Sunday, January 25th, 2009
Today is my birthday–a Zero birthday.  This is one in which the ones digit is a zero and the tens digit is something else.  In our culture, Zero birthdays after 20 are not heralded with much joy, but with sympathy and suspicion. I can remember the first party I attended for a 30 year-old.  People arrived wearing black and bearing gifts of antacids and XXL-sized diapers.  “You’re old, you’re ugly, and you’re over the hill” were the themes of most of the birthday cards. What peculiar messages and gifts we bring to celebrate the blessed lives of our friends.  I thought it was especially bizarre because at 30 I still felt young, dumb, and naive.  I was at the dawn of adulthood and just beginning to have an inkling of who I was.
I  love being the age I am now.  I wouldn’t trade my tens digit for the promise of extra decades or fewer wrinkles. So I plan to celebrate my Zero birthday the whole year.  Today my friend Sally who is Jewish recited to me a blessing called the Shehecheyanu, which is translated something like this.    ”Blessed are you our God, Creator of the Universe, who has supported and protected us and brought us to this moment.”  Without a few zero birthdays I  would not be at this moment.  And for this moment I am filled with joy and gratitude.